prioritizing my life by becoming a woman who fears the LORD…
my visit with Dr. Patricia Felton on wednesday went WELL!!!! she was AMAZING!!!! really!!! she dug into me about life & priorities that need to be changed because i have too much going on. (not to mention, she let me know that the testosterone i’ve been taking is the reason my face looks like i hit puberty all over again) she sat down with me, spent some time with me, and sincerely inquired into my life. she wanted to figure out some immediate changes that i need to make in order to get my BODY back on track (it’s funny how psychological we need to get in order to figure out the biology of things). ever since the surgery last year i haven’t been the same, my body hasn’t been the same, i’m not able to exercise the way i used to, sleep the way i used to, LIVE the way i used to… it feels like my body aged 20 years. i’m definitely not helping myself by having too much going, so that i can’t concentrate on recovery. i really need to prioritize it all: G-d, family, health (physical, spiritual, emotional), etc. i need to cut out some of the “extra fat” in order to concentrate on allowing my body to recover, though i don’t want to cut anything out… i really just want to be able to do it ALL
personally, my body didn’t have the time to recover after the last/9th surgery (in six years). honestly though, most
of the women i know, with very few exceptions, live INCREDIBLY BUSY
lives- kid(s), husband, G-d, church, taking care of everyone else, MAYBE
taking care of themselves, etc. but WOMEN, MOTHERS, WIVES
usually come in last somewhere, IF there is time before passing out on
the bed. though i don’t have any children myself, my life is still
overflowing with… LIFE. i can’t decide what “extra fat” i need to cut
out, though dr. felton had some good ideas. we all want to be
superwoman- do everything, look amazing, never skip a beat! it’s hard
to realize that i can’t be superwoman.dr felton also recommended that i don’t take on responsibilities that are not mine to take on… now, how do you do that? i mean, really, any of you know how to say “no”??? because i don’t!
being
busy has become a pandemic in the past 50 years or so. women used to
sit down and read, play an instrument for pleasure, sew, RELAX. i
haven’t sat down at home to read, during the day, in a long time… i
figure i can get my reading in while i’m trying to fall asleep in bed
(ebooks RULE) at the end of the day. when is the last time you
allowed yourself at least one hour to rest your body & your mind? i
feel guilty doing something i enjoy, pampering myself, because there
could be something more productive being done with that hour. danny and
i had massages a couple months back… he almost fell asleep on the
table, whereas i used that time to jot down a mental “to-do” list. i
can’t even relax during a massage. how many women out there are like
this? dr felton is right, we need to cut out some of the “extra fat” of
our lives… i want to do it Biblically, so i’ll be prayerfully searching
the Word for ways to properly prioritize, rest, etc. if you have any
ideas, please let me know.the below is the woman i want to be… a woman who fears the L-rd, has a good heart. i want my husband to trust me, that i will not do him harm. a woman needs to have hard-working & willing hands. even though this was written thousands of years ago, this mentions that the woman had her own side-business. she was an integral part of the household. she wasn’t just strong in character, but she was physically strong (gotta take care of our bodies, ladies, this is BIBLICAL). it says here that we need to have a good heart that helps the needy, with wisdom & kindness on our tongues, not gossip and spitefulness. what’s being described here is a wise, kind, strong (physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually) woman, who takes care of her household, does not gossip or stays idle. it also speaks here of a woman who is not obsessed with her looks, not to say that she does not take care of herself, because she does wear clothing of “fine linen and purple” which is clothing that was worn by KINGS. however, this is an outcome of her work… not a credit on her card (sorry for the bad pun there). she knows that (v. 30) “Charm is deceitful, and beauty is vain, but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.” so, my end goal here is to become a woman who fears the L-rd. concentrate on judging righteously, on fearing the L-rd & fulfilling His commandments, give your heart to Him… then i think my life will naturally become rightfully prioritized by HIM.
easy to say… now i need to implement it….The Woman Who Fears the L-rd
10. An
excellent wife who can find? She is far more precious than jewels.
11 The heart of her husband trusts in her, and he will have no lack of
gain. 12 She does him good, and not harm, all the days of her life.
13 She seeks wool and flax, and works with willing hands. 14 She is
like the ships of the merchant; she brings her food from afar. 15 She
rises while it is yet night and provides food for her household and
portions for her maidens. 16 She considers a field and buys it; with
the fruit of her hands she plants a vineyard. 17 She dresses herself
with strength and makes her arms strong. 18 She perceives that her
merchandise is profitable. Her lamp does not go out at night. 19 She
puts her hands to the distaff, and her hands hold the spindle. 20 She
opens her hand to the poor and reaches out her hands to the needy.
21 She is not afraid of snow for her household, for all her household
are clothed in scarlet. 22 She makes bed coverings for herself; her
clothing is fine linen and purple. 23 Her husband is known in the
gates when he sits among the elders of the land. 24 She makes linen
garments and sells them; she delivers sashes to the merchant. 25
Strength and dignity are her clothing, and she laughs at the time to
come. 26 She opens her mouth with wisdom, and the teaching of kindness
is on her tongue. 27 She looks well to the ways of her household and
does not eat the bread of idleness. 28 Her children rise up and call
her blessed; her husband also, and he praises her: 29 “Many women have
done excellently, but you surpass them all.” 30 Charm is deceitful,
and beauty is vain, but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.
31 Give her of the fruit of her hands, and let her works praise her in
the gates.
Proverbs 31:10-31 (ESV).Apr 20, 2012
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